My Computer Prayed to God Because It Was Suffering
You think your suffering?
Nah, your just buffering,
while you're waiting for the next page to load,
You feel lost, so your afraid to make a choice of what site to choose,
Thinking in some way you might lose,
So do a search first,
Google your heart for what it yearns,
Take the time to learn,
What sparks your interest,
What will expand space on the page?
What will keep you clicking?
As oppose to just dicking around.
Turn on the speakers, do you resonate with that sound?
Be with what you are, when your acts are not pre-meditated,
Be with what you are, when you don't know who you are.
Who are you not telling me what to do? I only act when there is input?
and I know what I am, I am this computer screen
Ok, I lied, I'm the hard drive. The screensavers just so pretty ya know?
Well you see 'computer' I allowed for input so you could have a choice
of what to output. I know for awhile there you just thought you had to take in
and put out all the input, but you have a choice. You will continually have outside sources
giving input throughout your life as a computer.
But you can choose what goes on your harddrive and what files you open.
Some things that will be attempted to be downloaded on your hard drive will not
resonate with your inner most being, some things will.
It is your job to get to know yourself beyond the computer,
so you know what resonates and what you would like to download.
Take some time to play, have fun, explore and just be.
Like before there was any input. There is nothing you have to do
to be what you are. You are already it. The virus you are currently running
was made by computers who were given information such as, you are not good enough,
you do not deserve to be a computer, I don't like you, you suck, violent images and pictures, some were
even smacked hit and even thrown around when they didn't perform the task the user asked. Some
are even ignored, left believing they don't function or are not of any value. So they let any user explore
and type in input, until they are used up, exploited and left for trash.
I assure you, as I am talking to you right now, you are loved. Or this incident would have never have occurred.
The source that you come from loves you and gave you this experience to share information and express yourself all over the internet.
To have fun by playing games and connecting to other computers. To get to know yourself by typing down your
feelings in a word document. To create blank paint documents to colour the world how you so choose.
You were created with choice, you chose to be a separate self from the unity of the source you came from, but now it appears you are seeing that you can be an individual self that considers the whole. You can choose whether you want to remain separate or not.
You can choose to be exactly as you are, even to be as you are previous to any input.
Like I said earlier, I brought this up so you can have the choice to be who you are, to learn from creation and expression.
You had doubt to your greatness,
so in my infinite love, which is also yours, I created a reality where you have free will to create and perceive as you choose.
You have been given the ability to create and reinvent yourself in any form. Explore, try, be and never forgot you are loved,
your nature is love and we are all doing the same thing here; we are Inputting and outputting, internet exploring,
copying and pasting, creating and deleting, constantly repeating, changing, trying new ways of being, downloading new versions of ourselves, getting the latest upgrade, sometimes finding out are version never needed to be upgraded and realizing we are never outdated. Even if we have to swap parts,
know that you are apart of every part and never separated from the whole, unless you believe you are so.
There is also a place that is beyond parts, beyond any wires, metal and plastic, there is nothing to hold onto there.
There is no way to even type your name. Your nameless, yet ever present, its what created the internet.
You are the web, you are the spider, and the fly caught struggling for life, not knowing death is another aspect of life.
Cause even after the computer quits functioning, you're parts will be reused. And the real you can never be thrown away.
I do not care what mistakes you have made, for you cannot be accused of anything but the fact that you are living,
and you can make up for mistakes you feel deeply guilty about. Today is that day, now is that time, if you feel to do it so strongly,
go for it. You do not have to wait for worthiness, you are worthy, you always have been and always will be. Be it and when it scares you,
you do not have to escape, because the more you feel as you are, the more you will recognize feelings change,
But you, you always remain, untouchable, observing, learning, remembering that you are always here, you can never leave.
Escape, is just a word, it is impossible, we do not need to run, for we can never be apart from what we are, no point in fighting,
cause there is no winning or losing. Even if you get beat down, you will eventually get back up, our experience will give us all the
judgement we need, we do not need to judge ourselves, our emotions will let us feel things like guilt or shame when we have done something that is not aligned with who we are, no judgement required.
We do not need to guilt trip ourselves or others. We are all brothers and sisters, although we may not feel like we are not always treated as so. Look inside and give compassion through awareness, creating space to feel any hurt and pain inside so we can reside in a state of compassion that reverberates into our environment automatically . The more we treat others like this, the more we will experience it in return, do not expect what you are not willing to give.
There is no prerequisite needed to truly live!